stuff like.
sooo...
people seem to be starting to leave. can't wait til it's my turn.
lots of stuff that seems to be going on and through my head.
stuff like tafe and wondering what my average week will look like next semester.
like wanting a job but not knowing when i'll be able to work.
like wishing i was more organised and could manage my time better so there would actually be time when i could regularly work.
like wanting to keep my social life and do more stuff with school friends and being able to cram this work time in.
like deciding what next year and the years after will look like.
like finding where i fit.
like maybe becoming slightly too attached to people and watching as they leave and knowing the relationship won't be the same when i see them next.
like dealing with other people leaving.
like wanting to do a billion things and procrastinating because i don't think i'll have the time. ironic, huh.
like wondering who i really am. and if i really know.
like questioning whether i am capable of loving, and if subconsciously i really don't want to let myself, because it just seems easier to live a cushy, selfish existence like the majority of humanity.
hm.
as i said. lots of stuff.
Labels: life
posted by elise @ 7:45 pm
2 Comments:
yay for blogging! and you commented on mine!!
Oh and you know how we were talking about nursing at UTS? Well i also remembered that Lauren Knight is there as well! So thats another person you know.
The whole procrastinating thing... im so there - it sucks. But everyone does it... we just need to get motivated and say 'why not?" , or 'i can do this'... which is very hypocritical of me to say, cos i never think like that. But i want to think like that!
Have you ever done Oprahs happiness test? (just wondering...)
I think we should come up with a monthly meeting day. So that we can see more of each other. (and i think i have said that b4 too, but it just hasnt happened)
And now i really think i am rambling... so i will go and leave you in peace from this babble.
Oh and one last thing ...
GO BLUES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love ya!
Procrastinating is motivation..you try to get as much time doing nothing as you posibily can and the realisation that somthing is due tommorow makes you do it..and you do do it and do ok with it and think..why do it earlier anyway?..that kind of went of from what emma said but yeah..
I definetyl would like to see you elise,lots of holidya hours to do this,and hopefully by then i would have read agatha rasin hehe! very philosphical entry my dear, be happy and know that u are loved!
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